Mindless Ramblings v4.1

Written in the clouds, 02:22 p.m. - Thursday, April 28, 2005

I don't think I have ever been this sick in my entire life

I haven't been able to keep any food down for almost a week now. Loosing massive amounts of weight. All in time for finals, heh. heh. heh.

I don't know why this happens to me. Let's see. . .I got in a HUGE fight with my best friend, and will probably never speak to him again. Got my house broken into. One of my best friends from high school committed suicide. All within about 24 hours of each other.

In the midst of all of this, I'm trying to study for finals, meanwhile, I can't keep food down, I'm sick. . .and I'm trying to figure out whether or not I should move again.

Oye!

Written in the clouds, 12:03 p.m. - Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Akon's site

*yawn!!!!*

Yeah, it's been awhile. Not really online too much anymore. . that's what happens when you work full time and go to school full time. . .and have five or six hobbies all competiting for that precious 24 hours in a day.

And I'm prolly moving again soon too. I really hate Dallas. It's ugly, smelly. . and there are cops everywhere who seem to have it in for me. @,@ I'm serious, they've tagged my car, or SOMETHING!!
I really hate moving though. I've moved more times than I am old, and I'm ready to be done with it. I haven't made alot of friends here, and I've been here about 8 months now. First time that's ever happened. Guess I'm just too. . .hmm. Too what?
Maybe it's because I have no free time. . . .anytime I get a day off, I run down to Houston to spend time with my friends down there (just got back yesterday, actually :D ). . or the fact that most of the people I meet in school live 45 minutes away from me. . .or that they are all 20+ years older than me with children older than myself!!! Not too sure.

Hehe. . I'm rambling, but I guess I'm allowed to in my own blog. . .if you can even call it that. I really, really need to update this page. Fix all the broken image links, find a new image host, archive the pages, fix all the dead links.. . .ectect. Oh well.

I *did* get the new sony psp though. Very cool.
EXCEPT for the fact that I have 15 dead pixels, the system is always freezing. . .and the battery only lasts about 1/2 of the advertised life. *sigh*. Can't win.
At least the Nintendo ds doesn't have any bugs that I can find so far. They just really dropped the ball by releasing the system w/o alot of games. And they wonder why sales are down on both the DS and the Gamecube, huh?

Written in the clouds, 11:48 a.m. - Friday, December 10, 2004
Powerpuff Girls doujin- acutally, very cute ^_^

I've had this blog for almost exactly three years now, since December 7th, 2001. That's a long. . . ..arss. . . .time. I really need to update this thing. Half the links are broken, and . . oh yeah, my host for my images went out of business almost a year ago now ^^;

So much has changed since then. Katya Avalos, at the time, my best friend, set up all the coding for me. Now, I can and have made several of my own webpages, and Katya and I really don't speak anymore. (I still check up on her blog and her art from time to time. ^_^ ) I've moved four or fives times since then, worked four seperate jobs. I was still dating my ex, Michael. . who I oddly enough talked to last night for the first time in six months. Since then, I've had friends that have been married, friends that are in jail, and friends that have died.

Damn, I feel old. ^^;;

I like to reminisce here. I really don't ever do it anywhere else. So if it seems I talk about the past alot, it's because I do. I curse my photographic memory sometimes, and the fact that I still care deeply for people I haven't seen or talked to in years. I remember the happy and the sad, in vivid details. It's like.. . I can close my eyes and watch the memories like movies on the backs of my eyelids. Heh, I'm such a girl ^^;;

I just finished my last final. I'm done for the semester. Well, I'm *supposed* to be here online writting/submitting my last essay, but I'm surfing the web, and doing anything BUT that. :D . I don't have the internet at home still, so I might as well surf while I can today. ;_; Only three more hours before I have to high-tail it home for work.

*Yawn* I'm so sleep-deprived. Over-worked, under played. ^_^. I have virtually no free time on my hands (this is without having a tv or access to the internet. yikes!) I swear, I'm going to drop dead anytime now ^_^.

But that's enough whinning for now! Off to write useless reports. . .whee!

Written in the clouds, 11:46 a.m. - Wednesday, December 8, 2004

Wow. It's has been a looong time.
I *should* be studying for my final that I have in. . mmm. . about a hour. But, I just can't concentrate. Too much stuff going on, and I have to get it out somewhere.

I'm pretty lonely up here at college. Yeah, I have a few friends, but finals are over on friday, and they are all going back home for the holidays. That means, all of my friends that live here are going to be gone for two months!!!!!! What in the world am I going to do?
I really am going to miss intelligent conservation that doesn't end with "oh, and don't forget, that game has a 90 day warrantee!!!".

Oh yeah. I've kinda switched jobs since the last time I wrote. I don't work for gamestop anymore. But now, I'm a store manager for Blockbuster's GameRush. Big change. It's actually kinda scary how much they trust me to completely take over their store. I mean, c'mon now!!! I get to hire and fire people, decide how much someone gets paid, and that kind of stuff. It's so over-whelming, I don't know what to do sometimes.

I also go to school 30 hours a week. . so between work and school, 80 hours of my life every week are already planned and used up before I even start!!! It's so hard to find time for my art or comics, let alone all the extra projects that I've promised myself to.
I actually have two pieces that should be published soon. . . .another calandar piece, and a custom graphic for a rave. (neither of which are done yet, ^^;;; ). I'm late on all my art projects. *sigh* How am I ever going to be able to do this for a living? Hehehehe.

I've been talking to a bunch of my friends from McAllen lately. It all started with seeing Z at AKon. That was a pleasant suprise. ^_^ I guess I really hadn't realized that I could affect someone else's life until then. I've also been talking to Hector and Jessie. . . talked to Michael a few times about six months ago. . .man, how time flies!!!! Pretty much all of them have moved away from the valley, except for Z and Michael, and they've been left and come back. I really miss my time in McAllen. . it was both the best and worst times in my entire life. I've changed so much since then, I wonder if they'd even recognize me?

Supposedly, I'm a responisble adult now. (hahah! You should see my house! SOOoo many toys ^______^ ) Hell, I own my own vaccuum! AND! And! A blender. Two of them, for some reason. I mean, c'mon. What in the world am I going to do with ONE blender, let alone TWO??!!?! I'm learning how to cook for myself (the hard way, heh ^^; ), cleaning, starting to slowly buy matching furniture. But, I live by myself, and I really hate that. I want a roommate so bad, but I live an hour away from the school. . and no one in their right mind (besides me, it seems) will drive that far.
I also don't have the internet at home yet. Just been too cheap to get it for myself, I suppose. So, I have almost no contact with the outside world. This should be, in theory, condusive to my drawing, but it's having the opposite affect. @.@

I miss my co-workers from Gamestop down in houston too. I feel like I'm surrounded my incompetant fools at my current job. I also have someone under me that tries daily to cause as much chaos in my life as physically possible, heh. I've never been so openly resented before!

Welp, I better get started studying for this final. Two already done (both A's. . like I could allow myself anything less *wink*). I don't know if anyone still reads this, but I like it better that way. This is for me, above all else. ^_^
Ja matte-ne!

Written in the clouds, 05:45 p.m. - Tuesday, June 15, 2004

Yeah, it's been. . . .six months now? Life is completely upside down again. Haven't been online alot lately. Too busy falling in and out of love, spending ALOT more money on stuff I don't need at all (evil credit cards, hehe). NOT drawing.

I need to draw again. I'll never be able to finish my manga at this rate. This would be the . . mmm. . fourth one I've really seriously worked on. This time, with Mekare. Mmmm.

I promise I'll try to update this soon. Give a con report for Ushicon and Akon 2004. . .maybe. So much has happened in so little time, kinda crazy. ^_^;
But for now, ja. ne.

Written in the clouds, 03:50 a.m. - Friday, January 9, 2004
Two-Kinds webcomic. very cute

Every year, on my birthday. . .I stay up really late thinking about how my life has changed.

During this last year, I met my best friend, Natasha. Actually, it's been four days shy of exactly one year. It's great to have a best friend again. . haven't had one since Michael. . . . the one that I thought I would never be without. I'm slowly begining to feel this again, but that's a completely different story.

In the last year, I've moved no less than four times. . .including my great pilgrimage to Walt Disney World. Despite all the crap, I really did learn SO much. I wouldn't trade that experience, however awful, for the world. Especially Saint Augastine. . . I drank from the fountian of youth. . and laid on the beach for three days straight. Gotta go back there sometime :D

Kingfingers still hasn't published, and I've stopped getting daily offers from companies. Kinda sad, actually. We lost Steven. . .lost Brian. . .website has been up for one whole year now. Not much has been accomplished in that time, sadly. Fonix was almost picked up. . so close, we could all taste it. I look back on the sketches I did for fonix in february, and I want to cry, they look so bad. My anime has improved SO much over the last year, but my CG has gotten much worse. Zac was living with me back then too. . .wow, alot has really happened. It's mind-boggling when you think about it all at once.
I intended to write alot more. . .but I'm too distracted. What I really want to type about, I can't. Going to go write in a notebook. . .night ya'll.

Written in the clouds, 06:08 a.m. - Tuesday, January 6, 2004
Look! I made art!

Yeah, it looks like Villagephotos.. . .the ppl I've been using for my free imagehosting for over a year now, have finally stopped and frozen all their free accounts. Boo. I'll have to fix my blog sometime soon.

Oh, and I made art. Fear the bishie-ness!

Written in the clouds, 12:05 a.m. - Friday, January 2, 2004
Look! FJ made me birthday art :D:D:D

I'll edit this space later with my latest crazy life.

Until then, check out the link. . . and have a happy new year ^_^

Written in the clouds, 02:23 a.m. - Monday, December 22, 2003

Congratulations! You're Merry!

Which Lord of the Rings character and personality problem are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

water

Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a
good communicator. Incredibably loving and
loyal when your trust is gained and you are
fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is
in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river
but nobody truly knows you.

What's your element
brought to you by Quizilla

cho

You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Which kind of candy are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure. "I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me." The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape. As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla

Written in the clouds, 02:57 a.m. - Tuesday, December 16, 2003

I'm having so much fun, I cannot tell you! Walking around for hours in the forest. .. sipping homemade hot cocoa.. . and the stars! Wow! The stars are amazing! I've bawled my eyes out twice today. . .once in pure joy, once in the deepest sorrow. And. . .. Danny is coming to see me! Yay! I'm excited. . but it should be nice and . . odd. I'm so shy in person initially. ^^;;; Better get some sleep. . . jaa!

Written in the clouds, 12:28 a.m. - Monday, December 15, 2003

So I'm in Indiana.
And it's cold. #$%!#$ Cold. All you from up north may laugh at me. . .but I prefer my christmas lying out on the beach, in my bikini. And yes, I'm just the kind of person to do that. Just to laugh at all the rest of you :D

I started out this trip by dropping a glass bottle on someone's shoe at the airport. Full of nice, sticky, giant peach tazo tea. Made that guy's day, I'm telling you! The lucky person who got to clean that mess up was also, funny enough, the exact same person who had the joy of getting me through the detectors at the airport. I swear, this guy must hate me now. I wouldn't stop beeping. I took off my jewerly, my hat. . coat, change, shoes, socks. . .and I STILL beeped. I was standing in nothing but my under shirt and kahkis. . .but the beepy stick wasn't finding anything. Another guy came over. . .looked at my ticket to see where I was going. He read: "Indiana". He busted out laughing, and told me to "just go. There ain't nuthin' in Indiana anyways." =.=

I got on the plane okay. Early, even. Then, I got puked on by a baby. Such a cute little baby. . . not so cute green vomit. Mmm mm. . delicious. I had the joys of sitting next to a man, also from the middle of nowhere, Indiana. He was held spellbound by the "great advance of technology" that I held in my hand. Read: Game boy advance. He couldn't stop asking me about it. Oh, but once he did. . he had to show me up with his fishing magazine. Talked to me for the next two hours (felt like three years) about fishing. .and his kids. . .and fishing with his kids. Finally. . the plane lands. . .after the pilot fresh out of pilot school rocked our plane so hard. . the plastic was vibrating so loud, I missed the crucial part of this guy's fish story. . which he just had to re-tell during our taxi-ing. =.=

Here I am walking around the Indy airport. Wow, everything is SO familiar. One of the joys of flying standby for years . . .you have LOTS of time to kill in airports. Hehe. . running around, pointing at things to nobody. It was great. ^_^ My sister got there. .. and I took one step outside, turned around, and walked my rear right back inside. 50 degrees difference in three hours. Not cool. Not cool at all. But. . .I walked outside like an idiot. . . with my tongue stuck out catching snowflakes. Mmmm. Snow tastes great. I had forgot how good it was. Driving, after getting horribly lost, the nice, neat snow turned into driving snow. Blinding snow. Fish-tailed and ended up in a ditch. Not once. . . twice. Nearly hit a pole on our way down too.

Triple A. AAA is a bunch of incompentant !#$!#s. After connecting me to FOUR different states. . all of which were /not/ Indiana. . . they finally did there job. . .and by this time (45 minutes later) some really, relly nice people had pulled us out of a ditch. We said thanks, they went on their way. 45 seconds later, we were promptly in the ditch. . again. Now, these same nice people, noticing this. . .not only pulled us out. . AGAIN. . but drove us all the way home. All the way. . .. . how incredibly sweet is that?

Hung out in Bloomington for a bit. Walked four blocks in driving snow for pizza. . and pizza, a movie, and a cocktail party later. . .. we went to a coffee shop. This is the coolest coffee shop I have ever been to. Great coffee. Live Blue Grass band. And what has to be the world's coolest bathroom. Now, I've seen ALOT of bathrooms. I've driven all over the nation, and to other countries too. This. . is the coolest bathroom. I even took PICTURES, which I'll have to post when I get home.

Indiana .. . was made for short people. I don't know how anyone that is tall makes it around here. I'm 5'1 (and that's stretching it). . . . this coffee shop. . I could reach up and touch the pipes. In the bathroom.. I could touch the ceiling. In my sister's apartment. . .the counter came to my waist, and I could touch the shower head with my nose on tiptoes. (hehe. . don't ask me how I know. :D ) If it wasn't so darn cold, I might move to this holy land of all short people. Not only short people. Everyone that lives here looks depressed. The sun doesn't come out for weeks. . .I can see how they would look that way. The streets are so.. .. .dirty. Dirty snow, depressed people. . and everyone smokes. And drinks coffee. Star Bucks must make a killing in the mid-west.

And now, I'm in the middle of nowhere. Yes, I'm serious when I say this. The nearest gas station is a good 30 minutes away. . and the nearest McDonalds is 45 minutes. You know you are in BFE when there's no Micky D's around. The nearest mall. . .the nearest mall. . . is over an hour away. Yes, I'm hanging out with the cows, pigs. . .. and trees. Oh wait! I think I see a fence post. Nope.. . nope. . .its just a tree branch. That far into the middle of nowhere. No clue what I'm going to do for the next FOUR DAYS. Go insane, likely. Not work on my artwork deadline that's due in a week. Take some pictures too I suppose. Got 90 slots in my cam to fill. Might as well ^_^ At least. . .I sort of have dial up :D

Written in the clouds, 09:24 a.m. - Saturday, December 13, 2003
Saikano.net - art page

Gone to Indiana. Back in a week.
try to make it w/o me. I know, it'll be tough. You'll live :P

Written in the clouds, 02:29 a.m. - Tuesday, December 9, 2003

I'm trying desperatly not to crash and burn on my studying. . . . .I hate american gov't class. Why do I have to take this useless class, with a more than useless, crazy teacher? *sigh*

So. . in an attempt to lighten my mood. .. and not study as long as possible. . . .IT'S QUIZ TIME AGAIN! :D:D:D:D:D:D

You have a mysterious kiss. Your partner never
knows what you're going to come up with next;
this creates great excitement and arousal never
knowing what to expect. And it's sure to end
in a kiss as great as your mystery.

What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Hmmm. . that's kinda cool. I suppose.

Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla
I can live with that. The ultimate day-dreamer. They had a god for that? Bow down and worship! Huzzah! XD

holding hands

hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.

What Sign of Affection Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla
hmmm. . .okay. I *do* like physical contact. . but. . uh. . whatever ^^;

Sagitarrius

You should be dating a Sagittarius. 22 November - 21 December Your mate is frank and open, optimistic and honest.
Though the Archer can display bouts of
argumentative, impatient and critical
behaviour, he or she is extremely adventurous
in bed.

What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
brought to you by Quizilla
Ack! No no no no! Wrong answer quiz! Not the answer I wanted to hear. ;_;

Pink info

Your Heart is Pink

What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla
ha! hahahaha! Wow, it really is getting late.

My inner child is ten years old!

The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.

How Old is Your Inner Child?
brought to you by Quizilla
hehe. *twirls around in circles*

Okay, I'm finding this incredibly dumb now. And my gov't text book is *still* starring me in the face. *sigh*

Written in the clouds, 09:11 p.m. - Sunday, December 7, 2003
Missa's Page!

Yesterday, homeless people stole my food Actually,. . I'll just paste my logs from the chan here:
* Pingbunny has her hair in pigtails atm
* Pingbunny was also mistaken for a 14 yr old today because of the said pigtails
[NekoSim] hehe
* Pingbunny , in addition, had her food stolen by homeless people, who assumed she was 14, because of the said pigtails
[NekoSim] Thats when you kick em in the nuts!
[Pingbunny] they run pretty fast
[gleepmeiadreaming] if you shoot them they don't run as fast
[Pingbunny] o.0!!!

And so goes the story of my election day campaigning. The christian group also came after me. . . and started some cute little chat about "dike kike! dike kike!" So most of my three hour shift (on NO sleep.. .watching POTC was more important at the time. . Johnny Depp AND Orlando Bloom!. .*droolz*) was spend with yours truly hiding in her car, playing Final Fantasy Tatics Advance. Not that I minded so much either ;)

And now, I am doing everything in my power to NOT study for my finals OR finishing putting my portifolio together. Three more to go. . including that evil Government final.
Tsume and Iota are in the process of re-teaching me how to rpg. . .which I haven't really done since middle school. Minus what Heather has coerced me into (mainly dragonball z off the cuff rpging) or some live action rgping (quite fun, really). Pretty interesting. I may have to draw my chara out and re-name her after finals.
"After Finals" seems to be a great excuse for everything I need to get done. Three more days. Three more days. No more delaying!
godd

You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator. "And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world." Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian). The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth. Her sign is the dawn sun. As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Written in the clouds, 08:18 p.m. - Friday, December 5, 2003

Yesterday was ONE YEAR since my major car accident.

Going, on my way to school. . .minding my own bunny business. Actually going in EARLY to STUDY for my Anatonmy test (wow, that was a first :D ). This idiot in a white truck (can you say "drunk hick"?) with a big mac hanging out of his mouth (I'm serious. A Big Mac) shoots across the interestion of only the busiest highway in this whole friggin city of 4 million people. And, out of the 4 million people, guess who was the lucky one who got to plow into the side of this guy going 55 mph? :D:D:D
So, I bent my steel steering wheel three inches with my right eyesocket (boo!), got all my finals delayed (yes!), couldn't see properly for the next six months (wonder why?), and I still have not gotten any money from the bastard yet (grrr!).

Signed up for classes, first major final down (three more to go! huzzah!). . . .and I get to go harrass voters tomorrow at 8 am (=.=) to have them vote for a, it turns out, lesbian democrat. I shall have to remember to thank my Gov't professor for this little joke she is playing on me. Hehe. . I called my mom up and told her the good news, and she flipped! That alone with be worth standing out in the cold tomorrow for 5 hours. (As I have said before, I have nothing against homosexuals, OR democrats, I just belong to neither group. . .despite what someone else may say. *cough*

You may be going, "But Ping/Koibito! Where's all the crazy stuff that always happens to you? THATS what I want to hear about!!!!" Bleh. Being chased for 15 miles by a manical old bald guy that INSISTS he wants my phone number just doesn't seem crazy enough right now. Nor does the fact that for some unexplainable reason, 14 dogs showed up outside the place I work, and would /not/ leave. . .yet when I walked out, told them to "GO Home!", they magically all departed (after having been there for two hours). Actually, that was pretty darn cool. Wish they would have been kitties though. . .kitties are cooler. Like the one that walked up to me in the middle of a book store!. Don't ask. . that one still confuses me.

I have finals to study for, naked people to draw, and games to play. See-ya!

Written in the clouds, 02:32 a.m. - Friday, November 28, 2003
Maddox-- funny sheep!

Happy Thanksgiving!
Yes, I know thanksgiving is over. I know you already ate lots and LOTS of turkey and fell asleep into a sleepy trance afterwards. However, I did not.

But, we managaed to get the five year old drunk again ((Yeah, she likes beer. The darker, the better. Don't ask.)) My mom, the lovely person that she is, confused grape juice with wine, and the five year old drank no less than four glasses of it before falling out of her chair, dead drunk, laughing. Fortunately, hardly anyone came home this year for turkey to witness this, even though there was easily enough food for 30 people.
This was easily the highlight of my day, followed close by watching the five yr old try to play a video game afterwards, with little success, but lots of rolling on the floor giggling from both of us. Drunks are funny, but they are the king of all funny when they are five, and think "stinky butt" is a good, stiff curse.

Written in the clouds, 08:52 p.m. - Tuesday, November 11, 2003
megatokyo--because you know it always has to be the first link ^_^

Wow, I archived. Now I will stand here and dance around in my ren-fest costume! weeee~!

Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by orangeday.net